There is something deep in my heart that keeps nagging inside. It’s an undiscovered pain. I am continuously bringing it to the Lord, but it keeps hanging on. Jesus, I need you to reveal it and uproot it.
As I wrestled with the chaos of my heart, I felt God remind me to open one of my journals. I opened up to the words “let go.” Those words had been repeated to me for weeks and weeks, and I couldn’t seem to grasp what I was clinging on to. In His Word, God revealed to me the root of my chaos:
“and said to him: Leave your country and relatives, and come to the land that I will show you.” -Acts7:3
“Then he said to another, ‘Follow me.’ ‘Lord,’ he said, ‘first let me go bury my father.’ But he told him, ‘Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and spread the news of the kingdom of God.’ Another said, ‘I will follow you, Lord, but first let me go and say good-bye to those at my house.’ But Jesus said to him, ‘No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God.” –Luke 9:59-62
“If anyone comes to me and does not hate his own father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters—yes, and even his own life—he cannot be my disciple.” -Luke 14:26
There it was…the burden I was carrying in my heart. I was clinging on to what God was telling me to let go of, and it was weighing me down. In order to move forward into the place God was calling me, I had to let go of everything from the past—including the old girl I was. It all must be laid at the feet of Jesus. The wounded memories were no longer mine to carry.
The old girl was full of fear, insecurities, and wanted the approval of others to “feel” good. I was being tempted to look back in the past. Doing so can slow and weigh us down. That girl in the past doesn’t exist anymore. She is no longer bound by fear, insecurity, or needing the approval of others to do what God is calling her to do. She has passed through the fire that purified her heart. Now it’s time to walk in the new.
As I am typing this, I feel the weight of the burden that was carried lift. He called me, and I have a choice to make—dwell on the past or cut the rope and move forward. I cannot have one foot in and one foot out. The only choice is all in. I choose to cut the rope, Lord. I trust you!
It is time to step into my new life with confidence letting the pain of yesterdays go. We have to focus on the present working towards creating the future because the past is gone. There are people who need the uniqueness God put inside of each one of us to bring others joy, freedom, and hope.
My friend, if you too are struggling with the past, it’s time to let go. The past wounds, insecurities, and fear are gone in Jesus name! You are made new in Jesus Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17). It’s time to walk into your new life with confidence in who God is and says you are. You are adopted and chosen by Him.
Jesus whispers to you, “Take every memory that wounded you and put it in the fire. Burn it. It’s time to let go and move forward.”